karriefalon's Blog

Sitting looking into my life, seeing where it has been and where it is at, as well as reviewing some things I wish to go out and try. As a smaller skinny pale white as snow boy growing up on a central alberta farm, I can remember the countless conflicts that arouse because of how much I liked to wear a Dress and wanted to have on girls underthings and shoes and so on. Remembering how my mother told me over and over that a boy does not wear a dress, or do things in the house. Well after one thing after another I started finding ways to enjoy wearing the pretty underthings, and dresses I wanted to wear more and more. Finding durring it all that I was giving in and not say standing my ground on my own life. It was then taking it up with my grandmother she say had simpathy for me and she started slowly helping me being able to wear the dresses and things like i wanted to. 
As the years went by and I ran to my simpathetic grandmother for salvation to help me enjoy my own personal wishes and wants. Well as time went by so did the slow slow progress of acceptance by a brother and two sisters and my parents for the way i am. Eventually meeting the woman I choose as a wife whom after all of the failed and complex and let downs that occured in my life I made sure that woman knew right from the first ten minutes what I did in my so say private life and was in no possition to start to change for anyone. So after a long thirty years surviving all the usual ups and downs like any marriages can have we made all of the best as we went along. knowing everything she needed to know and loving her in all the ways I could and even taking my personal private life into hidding for her like she asked.  Well knowing because I never left any rocks hiding anything she was very awaqre I had filed to see if I could be accepted for gender reassignment. So when the day come I got my paper work to fill out and start my new adventure she was told as were my children, and my immeadiate family was also included. Well it was not long after I caught my now ex having an affair and starting to tell me the worst of lies ect to have her way to screw around and completely ruin a nice well established family. A family I spent all my time making and building a togetherness to enjoy forever.
         So now as I sit here and I look into where my world is and what is going on inside it I can only see the whole empty world that serrounds me. Yes I have a sort of so to say girlfriend in my life. No, no she is not a say potaoic girl friend. I sit trying my hardest to help this girl live a fuller life, live a more easier and comfortable life. But, but for what ever goes on in her head she seems as if she thinks she has to do every possible thing she can to do things that put a preasure on me and hurts me some times even. I love the way she will accept how I much much perfere never apearing and looking like the boy I still look like but not waqnt to look like. I also lovethe facts that she and I can stumble blindly and reconnect after the worst of the worst complications we have together. But my cheeks are getting so sore from having to nwipe away the tears that do not have to be there to begin with. Just like the tears that do not have to come when I am struggling to accept the issues I have about my sexual gender issues.

because of the friendship and relationship tht my girl friend and i have built and work on continosly, I have confssed many, many of my kooky, kinky, quirks and hang-ups I have and desire to try.  by my activity and things I say and things I say i do, I do have a out going side of me that may even be a bit braver than most have.  But in all reality I am a very very SISSY really SUBMISSIVE PERSONALITY.  In saying so I have all ways really wanted to try to find any open couple or even singles that are very into many diffrent things. One of my biggest of all things is becuse of how so much of my pleasures come from my loves to dress like an infant, or little girl I really desire to find actual very parental minded couples or peoples male or female that are relly knowledged about CHILDHOOD punishment, and REFORM SCHOOL PUNISHMENTS   with of corse keeping in mind the head misteress and head masters, nannys and thier mate ect are very int playing forced molestation rolls, and into putting me through extreamly hymiluating and embarrassing punishments.  keeping in mind no beatings or so to say wip and chain play as pain is a total turn off to me.   Examples of such things  made to stand in a corner holding up the back of my petticoat and drss to reveal i poohed my panties, do same to show I was caught wearing head misresses or pretend sisters panties unless experience is shared with a girl into this sort of thing. made to sit holding a dollie ect in a prim and proper girl way, am certain most can get the picture so fa, and upon having these punishments done with me turns on the male mates or head masters to turn to taking me for made to do molestation. and sexual favours. soam i the only one out here who kows f this sort of thing or are they all to hidden away in closets ad afraid to come out about it